Monday, February 21, 2011

127 Hours

Watched 127 Hours, and there's only one word to describe my feelings as I'm walking out from the cinema - Live Life to the Fullest! You'll never know when there'll be 'rocks' coming down from above and crash on you!

I hears some people say this movie isn't that good... But you know which movie is worst? Buried. (Google 'Buried Movie') I mean, that's the most cost saving movie I've ever seen! The concept is somewhat similar with 127 Hours, about someone trapped and no one knows where he is.... But director of 127 Hours manage to add more twist and turn of plots to his movie! So it's actually quite witty how James Franco was talking to the video camcorder.

Watched this movie after issues happened in my life, and seriously it made me think a lot. How Aaron Ralston live his life, how regret he was for ignoring calls from his mum, how he felt when his girlfriend left him.... Everything... How he fought and struggle to live, cut his arm to escape from the rock that crashed his arm and trap him in the Blue John canyon... How hopeless situation he was in, but then, he's still thinking how to live, and try to let others discover him... Seriously, what a guy!

In the end, he managed to escape, walked so far until he manage to see people and ask for help. That's the real attitude of living - Not Giving Up! Not even for one second!!!

Even though now, I'm still seeking a target in my life, a bit lost in the middle of nowhere now, but will continue to struggle and live my life to the fullest. Life is so short that's why it's something precious and beautiful, isn't? :)

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Wednesday, February 16, 2011


I've been thinking, what my life had become in these few days. So many ups and downs my heart barely able to withstand... And yet, I know I'll have to be strong, stand tough and keep going on.

So many friends and family members leave their comments and likes on my facebook wall, thank you very much for all of your concerns, I really appreciate the good intention of caring from each and everyone of you... But sometimes, we'll have to deal with life ourselves right?

Things changed, the feelings changed, you've changed, I changed... The feeling of waking up to welcoming a new day will never be the same again... Even though how much I miss the happy, carefree me, I know somehow it has been left in my past, unable to retrieve back anymore. And now, my mission is to create a new me, create a new form of happy feelings that is suit with the present me. (Which I wonder you understand what I'm saying or not, because I don't really understand. Haha!)

Somehow I wonder, is this the MUST kind of pathway a person transform into adult? Are what I felt recently the 'adult kinda feeling'? If yes... I pity all those adults out there, and I pity myself from transforming into one of them, which I've been restraining myself to be so much.

I've been living my life the way I wanted all the time, it's so happy, so freedom... But I know, society and people around me, aren't agree with what I'm doing. I'm considered as anti-social (family), selfish (because I do what I want and how I want it) and no future (freelance job, don't have any skills and certs at all).

Even though without all the recognition from the society I'm living... I'm still happy with it, because I'm doing what I want. You guys aren't happy with me, is because you guys can't do what I'm doing, and at the same time, still feeling so unhappy even though you already did what the society or other people want you to. Am I right? Hah! Gotcha!!!

As we already knew, life is so freakin' short... So freakin' short until there's no time to think a matter whether it's right or wrong. (Of course, not talking about illegal stuff here!) Something that seems so wrong today, may turn out to be right tomorrow. So who is there to judge what you're doing is right or wrong? Leave all the judgement till your own judgement day with God.

As long as I'm happy, I see there's no wrong for me to continue doing what I want to... Of course, there's always consequences and responsibilities, and beg your pardon, I'm old enough to realize what matter I'll be facing if I do this or if I do that, so no worries, I know what I'm doing, exactly.

Once again, I really wanted to thanks for all the concern from everyone, but sorry to be rude, it got totally nothing to do with you, you should get busy with your life, not mine. Haha. If you really want to bother mine, please do say yes when I ask you for lunch/yumcha. Haha.

Thank you so much for reading 'my muses'. Lol! Thanks for watching and good day! XD

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Saturday, February 12, 2011

The Saddest Day on Earth

I just been through something extraordinary... A pain that is so pain, I never felt it through my 24 years old life before.

Guess what people saying was right: There'll be no tears flowing out of your eyes when you're experiencing the saddest thing in your life. Yes, in the end, I didn't cry.

My heart is now broken into million pieces, so many pieces scattered around, I don't know how do I start to recollect them and mend them back into one whole piece... I guess it's pretty much impossible.

So pain... How long do I have to felt this pain until it's all gone?

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Monday, February 7, 2011


啊 我会慢慢的想起

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Ice Kacang Puppy Love

After one year, I finally watched this movie...  And I fell in love with it, like seriously.

How can Malaysian produced such an amazing movie? It touched my heart and I know, itrg touched those who have/had love in their heart. I wonder does it reminds you of your first love? Or the first time when two of you met? Such an unexplainable yet miraculous feeling and this movie shows it all.

The kind of sweet yet sourish taste of an unclear relationship between you and him/her... What a  memory isn't? Too bad, just like a bowl of ice kacang, this taste of feeling will not last forever, it will be a part of your memory that you will not forget for the rest of your life.

After I watch this movie, the song that Ah Niu sang inside the movie resounds in my head until today! (fyi, I watch this movie on first day of CNY) How geng is that song??? So perfectly sung, with the sadness hidden in the vocal, sang for a love that will never be forgotten.

And I'm so desperately to find the original soundtrack of this movie... Thought that I'm able to go to MidValley's super huge Speedy shop but too bad, got caught up in something.... I want the song NOW!!!!

And I realize, sometimes something is better left unsaid... You will never know what responds or reaction that you're gonna get... It is better that I protect my own from getting hurt, and protect my perfect image in front of you, so that whenever you thought of me, it will be something beautiful, and no ugliness at all.

All the sadness, the despair, the unsatisfied, are all meant to me, myself. I'm the one who should bear all these all by myself in order to give you the best, not the bad ones.

I thought love was to share the happiness, sadness, disappoinments and ugliness together, but I guess all these only apply to fairytales, not real life living humans, not me, not you.

I shall keep all these to myself, all the loneliness I felt, because I know, whatever I say or do, you will not understand, nor you try to stand on my side and understands me... Because you are not me, you will never be me, and feel the pain I feel. All sadness that I share with you, are just an imagination to you.

Today, I just learned something new: How to treat others better in order to let them see the angelic side of me, and give hell to my soul.